Wednesday, August 26, 2009
last night.. hubby came home at 2.30am.. when we are about to go to bed at 3.30am, he said he had things to discuss with me.. he has been ask to extend for another 6months bcos they had problems getting sufficient manpower to replace those who are leaving 2 yrs later.. only the seniors have been ask to consider and he is suppose to give the management his answer today..
i am in such a dilema.. i mean.. it would be good for him to stay here longer and learn more things.. given the nature of his job.. he needs to do hands on to learn more things.. and this environment will be more conducive than that of sg.. besides.. we have another 6months to save for our house, customary etc.. using the rational side of me.. i would have said yes.. as this would be beneficial to his career.. besides, i can travel to more places.. but the emotional side of me can't seem to make myself say yes.. i miss my family.. friends.. n i need to embark on my career.. 6months doesn't seem long.. neither is it short.. all our plans will have to be delayed..
i didn't give a clear answer to hubby.. my heart n my mind are in such a struggle.. perhaps my life here hasn't really begin.. that's why i felt reluctant.. perhaps when i start to go out with friends.. have more company.. get myself busier i wouldn't felt as reluctant..
i already have the answer in me.. but.. i can't seem to convince myself as yet.. :(
over the rainbow on 8/26/2009 07:30:00 AM
